Season 2 Episode 7: Claiming Responsibility, Moving out of Scarcity, and the D-Word.

Well hey there, everyone.

What a fun conversation this was!

I feel like a LOT has been coming through within this liminal space we are currently occupying—this space of being not what we were, but not quite yet what we are becoming...—and Allison & I explored several themes that seem to be popping up frequently: namely, responsibility, scarcity, and that big ol’ D-word, discipline.

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Season 2 Episode 6: What is Healing?

Hello friends, and happy holidays.

I hope this has been a beautiful time for you all, and I wish perhaps especially that the Solstice and depth of this winter season has been clarifying and meaningful. It certainly has been for me.

This is a great episode. Allison & I explore the idea of what ‘healing’ really is, and how that idea shifts depending on what system you’re utilizing.

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Season 2 Episode 5: Adulting

I think that Shamanic practice offers a very beautiful (albeit difficult) perspective on what it means to really ‘grow up’, as in this work being an adult is not so much related to whether or not we can pay our bills and maintain a job (though, yes, that it still important..) as it is to whether we do, say, think, and feel all the same thing.

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Season 2 Episode 4: The Challenge with Choices

This was such a fun conversation to have, all about how we make choices, whether we are REALLY making conscious choices and being honest with ourselves, and how to engage with making better choices in every area of our lives.

My apologies again for the lack of show notes (I might take up those podcast pesterers who can transcribe them all for you someday soon, cause that sounds like a really good and timesaving option…).

Hope you enjoy, friends. Lots of love.

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Season 2 Episode 3: THAT card.

Oh man. It has been quite a time.

I’m so sorry for not posting podcasts the last while, for those of you who might be waiting on these! I explain a bit more in this session about what has been going on, but omitted a lot of other life craziness that has prevented things from happening!

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Season 2 Episode 2: Sacred Water

As human beings, our relationship to water is essential, and sacred.

And yet it seems like we take this element for granted or don't acknowledge what a lack of water or even connection to water will create in our lives.

This episode is dedicated to the practice of conscious connection with water, and in it we explore:

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Season 2 Episode 1: Into the Vortex

Hey friends!

Welcome back. We’re so happy to be back in this space with you all.

Let’s dive right into here, shall we? In today’s episode we’re exploring the realities of this ‘initiation’ that we are moving through while transiting the intense vortex energies of this time.

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Episode 15: This is the end.

Wellll…at least for now. Welcome to the Season Finale, folks.

We will be returning to this space in a few weeks (stay updated on Instagram with me @cielgrove), but I felt that this was a good time to pause, create some very deliberate content, and return with some specific practices, teachings and philosophy in anticipation of this new ‘vortex’ approaching.

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Episode 13: Where are we trying to get to?

This is likely to be the first of many, many episodes where we will attempt to explore the ‘purpose’ of Shamanic medicine, of healing, of spiritual practice, and of pretty much everything we engage with as modern seekers.

Where are we trying to get? Who are we attempting to become? And if all the answers are already inside and present within us, are we actually trying to ‘get’ somewhere…or is something else afoot?

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Episode 12: A little bit of Ciel Story

In Shamanic practice the medicine of each person and practitioner is profoundly different, and has been shaped and honed through the experiences of their lives.

What one person knows and can offer as medicine is determined by the experiences they have had in this lifetime and soul process.

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Episode 11: Letting go of the rope

This conversation is apparently what you get when both Allison and Ciel have had little sleep, a bit too much caffeine, and a healthy dose of social chaos.

We explore a wide range of topics here, including:

  • Why we swing from rope to rope of what is familiar for us, and why it's important to let go (and why that is so hard!)

  • Why surrender is so important, and what we need to focus on instead of aiming for control all the time.

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Episode 10: Building the Bones

Welcome to Episode 10, friends! This is probably my favourite episode so far.

Not only did I get to use the term ‘batshit asshole’ in a complete sentence, Allison brought forward the Bones card from the deck, which is one of my favourites to work with and explore in the Soma section.

The bones ask us to look at our core beliefs about ourselves, other people, and the world at large, and to question whether we are truly being ‘good friends to ourselves’. And then…what really gets in the way of doing that for ourselves and each other?

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Episode 9: Tonglen Practice

As far as transformative practices go, Tonglen is certainly up there with the most profound and powerful ones. There has been nothing so potent in helping me shift my relationship to suffering (both mine and that of those around me) than this ancient work of ‘sending and taking’. Tonglen has guided me through depression and personal struggle in the past, and continues to support what feels like a meaningful and compassionate approach to the wider suffering of the world.

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Episode 8: Beautiful Conversations

Hey friends.

During this time of great uncertainty and transformation there is so much on all of our minds, and surely there will be so much more that will reveal itself to us over the next while, disclosed gradually as we explore our racial biases, limitations in perspective, and unconscious orientations towards the valuing of certain beings over others.

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Contemplations 1: Right Relationship

Allison + I will be back with more conversational-style podcasts soon, but thought I’d try out a new format this week: ‘The Knowing Contemplations’.

Brief, pithy, and hopefully meaningful, Contemplations will aim to offer a bit of perspective and insight into topics relevant to healing + spiritual practice, and leave you (hopefully) wanting to explore more on your own!

Todays’ topic is Right Relationship.

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Episode 6: Animal Spirits (Part 1)

Shamanic medicine places enormous emphasis on the relationships we create with the world around us, and sees this world as being both in this material dimension and in the alternate dimensions that our consciousness has access to.

Here, in 3D, we are connected to the elements, other sentient beings, and those so-called inanimate objects that still carry Spirit within them. Through our connection to alternate realities we are connected to our Ancestors, Teachers and Allies of all forms.

In today’s conversation we take a first go at exploring the concept of Animal Spirits, and how we build and sustain the transformative, soul-affirming relationships that are possible with these allies. If you’ve been interested in Animal guides but have questions about how best to access and understand this medicine, today’s episode is for you.

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Episode 5: Making Peace with Vulnerability and Reality

Allison pulled the Frog + Plantain card prior to recording this episode, and then thought she’d try another card to see if the message coming through was for her or for those listening…and then she pulled the Salamander + Aloe card. Seemed like the message was fairly clear from both: how are you being vulnerable…or not?

Without explicitly noting the totality of elements contained within these cards we spent this episode dancing around:

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Episode 4: Cultivating Joy + Magic

I had been downstairs being amazed by the hummingbirds at the feeder prior to going up to record this episode, and so it was a wonderful thing to have Allison pull the Hummingbird + Tigerlily card for us to explore today.

One of my favorite cards (and birds) Hummingbird is a reminder of the (sometimes difficult) medicine of cultivating conscious joy, and recognizing that happiness/magic/awe are all available to us if we practice them. Along with this concept we explore a bunch of related topics in today’s episode:

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Episode 3: What does Anger have to do with Transformation?

On the day this episode was recorded Allison pulled the Snake + Chickweed card from The Knowing deck. Speaking to the energy of transformation (snake) but also the necessity of ‘protecting’ ourselves during and after a transformative event (chickweed), this card felt wonderfully aligned with the rather intense anger and frustration that has been popping up for a lot of people in the last while.

How are they connected? Why does anger happen during or after we are going through transformation? We explore why this happens for all of us and how to develop mastery in attending to these emerging energies and emotions, along with:

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